my 2010 Christmas gift??

i get this as my....souvenir? Christmas Gift? or New year Gift??

whatever, it costs a lot....and i like the bag it gave~

my 21st christmas

Christmas Christmas...
Im not a Christian, but all of us are celebrating it even i don't know why
but, in my concept, this is the day for the couple...
but, Im celebrating it with my Sisters...
long-long-time-not-seen sisters.

early morning,24th Dec
kinki, mun mun and me headed to Langkawi Island to visit our lovely young mother, Micole~
i do not plan to spend much at there
but the transport fees had cost me RM100...
steamboat- RM40
some other stuff..... 
luckily mum had given me some extra money
or else, Micole, Im not going everywhere with you but only stay at your house

the 1st night
we had only had the steamboat and countdown for the christmas
we had some beers too because the beers here are absolutely cheap!!(i heard it mixed with plain water? nut who knows?)
we play cards...who lose who drink
Kenneth is funny when he had some beer...
(we did not force him but he deserve to drink that since he try to fool somebody~~XD)

another day
we went for island hoping...
it cost 40 per person...

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the sea here is clear and beautiful...

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enjoying~~

we did not play water
we just keep on taking and taking photos
this is the cheapest entertainment!!
we did a lot funny things
micole jump and jump and jump for dunno how many times just to get a shoot
but seem like im the pro photographer, no one can take the good shoot except me!!haha

there is a tragedy when we are on the boat...
a tragedy happened on a foreigner!
'ouch!! it is fucking hurt!!!'
hee, what happen??
four of us know....hahaha

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welcome to Langkawi~~

2nd trial

ok, I failed again

the night in KL, im thinking
maybe, i should change my dream
maybe, i should set another life target for myself

i ask him,
what should i be
what can i do?

i felt that
i have nothing best
all 'half pail of water'....
DJ?
'wow, it is earn able job!!'my brother said
but, can i?

just as my brother said
i just too easy to satisfy
too easy to be happy
a compliment made me fly
too easy to give up..
a time of failure drag me to the hell
but at least i keep my dream for so almost 15 years

yes, i almost
ALMOST wanted to drop my dream
and just now,
i bath and i think
everybody got his/her dream
did anyone fulfill their dream?
did the successor success in just one-time-try?

there's a quotation from Chinese
bitter end sweet come (苦尽甘来）
i should get over all the difficulty
i should admit that
im not that talented
and im not granted

if i really wan to fulfill my dream
i have to pay more
maybe i should follow the advise of my brother?
get a teacher?

whatever
at least i tried
not once but twice already
at least i have ever fought for it

christmas gift

can i have an ink pen

those pen that can refill ink with a sharp head...

at first thought to post on FB

but finally not to do it

is an ink pen expensive?

or a wig?

 

 but i think...

nothing i will get...

so better wait for next year birthday~

simple love..

facebook..
everyday, you log in to the facebook
you see a lot of photos, status, notes, games updates...
those include complain, compliment, sweet talk, jokes, friends, family
and also COUPLE

the only thing that trouble me is COUPLE
the tarots said, nothing can trouble me except the loveship
yeah...i got my lovely family, not too bad in my study, i have friends too,
nothing worry for my healthy..i think...
but the loveship, even i don't go and touch it, it troubles me
is it the characteristic of Pisces?

when i fall in love
i doubted it and ran away
when the one do not love me
i sad i cry and blame the god
when someone love me
i push away and kick them off...

what is the matter??
i don't know
i saw the sweetness in Facebook
i saw the love in Facebook
i saw peace in Facebook
i saw the simple in Facebook

i started to wonder and desire the thing that have been rejected by me
i just hope i can get the simple things
a lovely boyfriend
holding me..
take some sweet sweet photos
have some sweet talk
sticker photos...
walk on the beach...
laugh together..
cry together...
lay on the shoulder and ask : do you love me?
and you say: yes...

you bring me to your house
they loves me a lot..
teasing here and there
a warm and kind family...
talking something that only the both of us know...
holding a small stone which may meaningful to us...
the thing that only we know..

go out with our good friends
my best friends are just like yours and vice versa
study together
watch the same series.
having same topic...

it seems simple..
everything i mentioned is just a very simple thing
it's warm
but, it is not easy to reach that...

this is simple love...

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o ya~ i cut my hair~~ ^^

nice??XD

Beach Party has gone...

waited from 530pm because we date at 6pm
that stupid junyu came at 630...

ti's alright....
calm down my dear...
we went for a dinner....DINNER.....>"<
i ate before i went out.
ok, i WAIT!

i wait and wait and wait...
finally...around 8 pm we officially started go to Beach Party...
(did you notice that? 6 to 8, 2 hours! ok.... )
while we reached there is almost 9 something.....aikz
(3 hours!!gonna die soon and im having headache on that day...)

this year party is not as merry as i think
car park weren't full
people...hmm..a lot but not too crowdy...

and the celebrities came out at around 10pm.....
and sand SIX songs.....(or five?)

only after their singing...we can only started the real beach party..
why?
because
WE ARE NOT ALLOW TO PLAY THE WATER BEFORE THEIR PERFORMANCE.....
0.0

the day was cold due to the raining god had just visited us...
cool breezing.... once we get into the water...
me and a girl(xue qi) were freeze !
we were giggling.... looking for the warmest shoulder...XD
those stupid guys kept splashing the water to us....
i cant see...T.T and my eyes were pain!!
so sad. that stupid teoh kwai loon worse, push me into the water!
cant breath! and drink few swallow of water.>"<

everyone are fking crazy on that day
water splashed here and there
laughing from one end to another end..
girls are thrown to the water everywhere...

im just freezing there and watching those girls to be thrown...XD
we are protected by our friends but also attacked by our friends....

someone said, it is not that fun
but it's happy for me
there is long long time i did not join them to play together...
it's a good memory...

and the shiny boy, you do have the shadow of my brother...
like your smile~

thanks for YOUR compliment and recognition!

just come back from singing session
go out with Vic and his colleages
first time with his friends...

finally get the good responses from them
one of them suggested me to go for the singing contest!
lol...
thanks...but i just failed it!

have a happy night today
but how come everyone thought Im his gf?
did he ever bring his gf out?
so weird...

never mind
we know it is not right~

anyways, they all are funny and nice~
really enjoying~~XD

failed

failed.

Ultimate power star
i was disqualified
what should be my response?
ok
there can be so many reasons that why im fail
Im nervous
I havent prepare well
i haven open my throat..

well, these are trashes
i cannot blame anyone
i have to admit that
Im fk stupid and worse

that is a long long way for me to improve and improve again

and i wonder
seem like Im the only 1 singing that loud in the room
am I using the wrong singing way?
or
im wrong for so many year?
i wonder...
maybe, im not that good in singing

i try to cheer myself up by persuading myself
this is because im nervous
this is my 1st time!

but, i cannot even recognize my singing
can anyone tell me that i am struggling on the wrong road?

anyway, the next competition
i will try my best, NOT TO BE NERVOUS

i thought, i can get it....
i thought....

birthday surprise

today Janet's baby had planned a surprise for her birthday
it's sweeeeeeeet!

in my memory,
when is the most memorable birthday?
i started to recall my memory...
birthday surprise...birthday surprise...
seem like....
not even once someone suddenly pop up and celebrate my birthday
all planned and i knew it much earlier.

the only special birthday is...
i get a homemade cake from seong yee..
that's the only special moment

even my 21st year-old birthday has not much memorable stuff.

hmm...
Im not telling you all Im waiting for a surprise...
im not.Im DEFINITELY NOT!!
XD
o

hmm...just feel....
y im always the one that saw the people around me get surprise??

26 nov 2010

went station 1 to see the audition.
not much people there...just twenty something.
and the people who get int the second round only 3 or 4 people...
too bad...


when i home, i received a mail form the job of modeling..
LOL, i thought i cant get it..
but never mind...
still not yet sure...
XD

videｏ （ｎｅｐｈｅｗ ｎｅｐｈｅｗ～～）

my cutey khang khang try to cheat his dad.
it's funny to look at him

it uses me alot of time to upload this video
because i have terbalik the cam when i record
i used lot of my effort to turn it back..
>"<

decision made!

courage came decision made

finally, i decided to participate the contest.
teen idol
this is the song i choose



i can only sing 2 minutes since this is the rule
and now, my problem is
how to get the karaoke version of this song!

problems coming one by one....
sigh...

2010 AUTO CITY TEEN IDOL

auto city teen idol...
look at the competition advertisement

my heart pumping faster and faster
even just wondering to participate
im nervous and scare

Should i?
and Can i?

be courage
i know this is the necessity
but i do hope someone told me
"YOU CAN DO THIS!"

but, i afraid to ask also
wth am i thinking??
arg....

USAUSA --UNO SANO USARANA

This (usausa--uno sano usarana) is derived from JAPAN personality diagnose by using the functions of the left and right brain.
Two common actions were used to analyze a person's frequently used brain.

left brain: connected with our logic, language, calculation and analysis
right brain: connected with our emotion, intuition, imagination and creation
.

（refer to the image)
1st step:　
the right thumb is covered ----> U
the left thumb is covered ------> SA

2nd step:
the right hand palm is seen ----> U
the left hand palm is seen ----> SA


and my result is...
USA girl!
性格：人情的好听众：散发出安心，温柔，善解人意的气质，是一个人人都想跟妳说心事的好听众，如困别人苦苦哀求妳，总是很难拒絶别人！
恋爱：难以爽快脱身：虽然会理性评估对方，不过一但陷入热恋，就完全被感性主导，当热情不在时，很容易因对方对自己的依赖而无法爽快分手！

Personality: a good human listeners: emitting a safe, gentle, understanding temperament, is a good listener that everyone wants to tell you their mind, such as people begging you, always difficult to say no!

Love: difficult to readily escape: although it will rationally evaluate each other, but once you caught in a love, completely dominated by emotional, not when passionate , it is always can not readily break up due to their dependence on each other! 

quite accurate....
haiz.....

refer from:
http://www.facebook.com/jazz.low#!/note.php?note_id=456667363612&id=310017499078

build and build and build

come on,
let's build the wall together!
since u have no objection, just keep building it
until it high enough to cover everything

maybe after the construction was done
u also haven realize it exists, do u?

badminton day ♥

dated with kyle, kwai loon to play badminton
there has been a LONG LONG time ago i played badminton...
i know, i never been good in badminton
now, it worse

yes, im active during the primary school days
but, it doesn't mean that i have a good skill on my sport
i just like chasing the butterfly
and now, actually, im improved
i din hoke my leg up when i hit the ball. *blink

though i am always that passionate to my friend
but, im still cold to the first met people or the long-time-no-see people
i just don't know what to do, sit there and wait for your calling..>"<

sorry for the guys who partner with me
i increase your exercise rate
you have to run here and there
and i could not help you anything
but, i think it is good for you guys, right??haha

next time i will try to get the ball that i think is impossible for me
next time.....
but, it is happy to pick up my racket and play badminton
i like exercise~♥
but im shy to ask you guys to play with me again...
since im so worse on it!!>"<

hope to play again...

she remind me of you!

these are two different people
i know
but, when i look at it separately
ee yong( left) reminds me of trace (right)
maybe, they have the same figure
maybe they have the same mouth
maybe they both have the big eyes

but when i put them together, (just as the photo above)
seem like not that much look alike..
if i don't say, will you think that these are different people?
i think, the answer is yes right?
hmm.....

"diamond" 鑽石● 泡沫之夏

i love this song
i always love this kind of melody
laziness...
sorrowful...
the love leaking out from the melody...


imagine that is a stage
standing on it
the voice coming out from  my throat...
if there is one day
i can sing in a bar
even just a small and dirty bar
just for a night...
can you look at me
and listen?
and, clap for me.....
even just a day
let me fulfill my dream, can?

鑽石

唱:徐熙媛
曲:范曉萱
詞:明曉溪、徐熙媛

如果我哭著請求
如果我跪地哀求
你呢 能不能為我而留
我知道你愛她
就像鑽石般愛她
就算她不愛你
你還是傻傻愛著她
人人都愛她
人人都愛她
她是完美墔璨鑽石
她高貴 她美麗
我是卑微的隨風而走的砂
我低賤漂泊
她是完美墔璨鑽石
她純潔她無瑕
我是卑微的隨風而走的砂
我世故我複雜
她是無價的鑽石阿
我是不值錢的砂
她是鑽石我是砂

怎样 song

歌名:怎樣
附註:
語言:國語, 曲長:4m31s
作曲:戴佩妮, 編曲:
監製:, 填詞:戴佩妮


我這裡天快要黑了　那裡呢
我這裡天氣涼涼的　那裡呢
我這裡一切都變了　我變的懂事了
我又開始寫日記了　而那你呢

我這裡天快要亮了　那裡呢
我這裡天氣很炎熱　那裡呢
我這裡一切都變了　我變的不哭了
我把照片也收起了　而那你呢

如果我們現在還在一起會是怎樣
我們是不是還是深愛著對方
像開始時那樣　握著手就算天快亮

我們現在還在一起會是怎樣
我們是不是還是隱瞞著對方
像結束時那樣　明知道你沒有錯
還硬要我原諒

我不會原諒　我怎麼原諒

99 step from you 一百步的距离

如果我们之间的差距只是100步
你愿意为我走那99步吗？

我会在你踏出那第99步的时候
踏出那最后的一步——我们就能相爱了

请原谅我的自私，我无法为你踏前两步
可是，我却希望你能完成这段路

我不介意你们说我自私因为我的确很自私
在确认你真正爱上我之前，我不会爱上你

给为我踏上98步的人
谢谢你为我付出的一切
你的付出绝对是无可替代的
只可惜，原来你的爱只到这里

给踏上50步的你
我们都懂，
原来，我们都需要公平的对待
可惜，爱情里却容不下公平二字

给踏上了1步的你
原来，我们都是同一类人
也许害怕受伤
也许只是纯碎路过
不过谢谢你缩短了我们的距离

给踏上99步的你
只有三个字最贴切
我爱你。

if out distance is just hundred step

can you walk the 99steps for me?

i will only walk the only step

when you are going to step the 99th..

I'm begging for your forgiveness

since i cannot take more steps for you

but, i really hope that you can finish the route

i don't care to be given the name of 'selfish'

because i really am

i will not love you until i have confirmed your love

for the one who take 98 steps

thank you for everything you have give

it is irreplaceable of what you do

however, your love ended here.

for the one who take 50 steps

both of us knew that

we need to be fair

unluckily, there is no 'fair' in love

for the one who take a step

we are the same person

maybe, we afraid to be hurt

maybe, we are just walk by

anyways, thanks for shortening our distance by a step

for the one who take 99steps

there are only three words for u

I LOVE YOU

i wonder

how many steps will u walk for me?

compliment from public

i like to sing
everyone who know me knew it i think
and i sang in public yesterday night
that place so called GK if i do not mistake
and last time it is Mike place
of course
sing the 1st song
feeling shy...

few songs later
there is clapping.
yes! they clap for me!
it's happy and encouraging
thanks Vic for bringing me there and have a good experience..

someone even send me a bottle of beer..
LOL...thank you for your beer, stranger.
get the compliment form the DJ too...
and thanks for the Mr. DJ who insert my song to the front
appreciate it so much~
and now i know, ah mei and sammy got fans from othere races too
Mr. DJ, of course i would like to sing for you if you love to...

Vic and me~

self-loving~

respiratory problem...

sickness come back again...

hard to breath

cannot sing well

this few days just lack of oxygen

hard to sing a song perfectly...*sad

maybe, it's because of the haze problem..

but i think it is not serious in ipoh...

how come i can't breath well?

i hate it

don't know what is the problem...

can only keep drinking water

keep inhaling the air with my mouth

but it hurt my throat

dry and pain

beat my heart with my fist

better...

but, impossible i hit it so many time right?

later on i vomit blood!

God, please help me

I'm just tire of this!!

heal me please!!!!!

i get a HEART!

thanks for my friends...

today is happy and fun

there is a long long time i have not out with the guys like you

nice to meet ya...^_^

maybe, it's realy your first time

maybe, it's not

but, it's my first time to get a HEART

it's a memorable day..XD

is this the priority to be the only girl in the guys?

haha, im feeling awkward that you guys pay for me...

really appreciate it..>o<

even your heart is not that perfect

i accept it with the effort you pay

it's funny, we seem like having a teaching lesson

teach how to make a heart with money...LOL

having friends like you all should be a great present

talk and joke...

just throw away all the worries behind

and, i made a heart too

please keep it nicely k?

don't break my little heart...>"<

confuse

confusing confusing and confusing!!!!!!
and i hate this

the only thing is to cut it off

do you know how to not get hurt?
just stay away from everything that can hurt you
and it always works

KL trip...my kind-looking great-grand-aunt's 90th birthday!

location: JW Mariott Hotel Kuala Lumpur
date: 30th Oct 2010 (Halloween Night!!)

went KL for her lovely birthday party
her eyes smile with her mouth~~
it warms my spirit
a lovely and kind popo (grandma)
just smile,
no loud speaking
no high pitch
no scolding
the temperament of her is different with others
noble women is the feel i got

she is my kind-looking great grand aunt!! she is beautiful rite??90 years old woman!

the restaurant she held her party, a chinese style restaurant

1st course

second~

my uncle taught how to eat this chinese gyoza
1st, pour a little vinegar
and then, have a small bite on it and suck all the sauces inside
finally, eat it!

with vinegar

wine, nice one

 

 

grant hotel with grant lighting

toilet~~LOL

ready with the towel and tissues...i like it

im here~~~

the party actually is quite nice, there are people singing

slide shows of aunt's life

lovely and nice grandson and greatgrandson

it's a warm dinner for her i think

a great and happy family 

hope it would happen in my life too....

for better or for worse

This is done by me, Mag, Mei, Janet and Natalie
our Mag is the CAMERA GAL~~~woo~~

and so called the director too even though we help too~^^

let's enjoy the show...

sorry mei, your funny face has to show off to the public~~
wakakakakaka

our main character, MEI!!!!

BBQ night

yesterday night 26th OCt 2010
having BBQ in Dumbfish's house

our ingredients...

nice pose

janet: i can't tahan anymore, faster take the photo!

JH help them to 'on' the fire~

success!!

what i have eaten....==

swee sweet mun mun and terrence~~biting stawberry~

the birthday star in this month~~

having a happy night on that day
it would be the memorable night for our princess
because....
I KISSED HER!!!!!!!

hey, i did not force her ok?
i kissed on her lips after she said yes!
sorry for all the admirer of Janet
wakakakaka

别家的女孩 the gurls next door

身边的你们，
总是不乏一些浪漫的爱情故事
总是生活在色彩缤纷的世界里
恶魔会存在而王子总会适时地出现

你们的生活
是我只能从漫画里体会到的
失意悲哀时，平时惹人厌的他
变得体贴温柔

你们的爱情
像是小说里所形容的
他是无可代替的
他，给了你多么特别的感觉

这些感觉
我都没有
是否神，在我出生之前
就把我的爱给剥取了呢？

羡慕了吗？
对，也许吧……
也许，憧憬中的童话故事还是存在的……
只希望不是披着羊皮的狼
把梦想都吃去

gurls around me,
your life is always filled with the romance
your life has been colorize by love
like the fairy tale
there is evil, there is prince, there is angel

your story
i sense it only in the shojo manga
everything is a faith
prince came out at the time
when you need him

the love between you
i can only understand it from the words of novel
the only, irreplaceable love
the unique feeling can only given by him

all these kind of love, feeling
i never taste
all the romance is only based on my understanding
it is just a word 'romance'

someone said, i'm cold-blooded lady..
i have no feeling
no love

God,
did you take away my love since i have born?

i'm jealous
i have no idea with what is going on

maybe
it's just a dream
and we never know
what is the ending of the dream

is it really a fairy tale?
or a nightmare...

ALOMOST TWELVE HOURS WORK!!!!

aiz....
what am i???
a working machine....
keep on typing n typing!

aiz...
should not determine what to do so early...
never know it is so many trouble...
my lovely partner finish the job i ask her to do..
early morning went out gai gai already...

can't blame anyone...
is me who distribute the job...
is me who ask her to do soo soo little thing...
even it has some mistake...

but i do hope you can readyy and ask is there any other job???
i do frusrtrated...>"<
never mind...
just spend more time on it ba....

10am...
working.....
12pm...
working working....

lunch came...
but i had no more appetie already....sob sob...

so continue working...

2pm...
haven finish yet!!!!!

OH MY GOD!!!!!
thanks mag for your concerning....
purposely come help me.....*touching...
but it is embarrase to let you do my work...
so, i take it back....(LOL, am i crazy??!!)

really have to apologize to someone....
calling me, but im just busy...
i will in a worse temper to the one who Kacau me!
sorry har....
hahaha

somemore the file cannot send out!!!!
arg, kill me, i want to sleep!!

a happy singing day~~

went Dream Box sing k today~~

reach Carefour around 2 something...
walk and walk around to look for a birthday present while waiting our singing partner.
almost 45 minutes...
they are not yet reach...
mag walk to the nearer shoplot with me to look for the new location for tea~


we found TEA BAR~

the honey pamelo tea~~only cost rm2 oo

 environment here actually quite nice and comfortable...good for eyes too~~hahah because the wall is in green!

janet~~

waiter in green too~~environment friendly~

special taiwan game~~never play, seem a lot of rulessss

what she reading???!!!!seem like Pxxx

sexy leg o~

the sing k section.....
i din take photo!!!!!!!
never mind,later on i grab it from mag!!
jay sing very very nice!!haha
a little bit admire him jor...(shh......XP)
actually all of them not bad also but the best is jay la...
except one.....
but just forget of him......>"<

hope there is many other chances to sing with u lo, JAY LEE!!
wakakakaka

*photo grabbed

after singing,
is the dinner time~~
we are in MOXI!!!( there is a shop called- MOLi, it is just beside it!!!copy cat)