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Life is weird and amazing. It always shows something that is out of expect and our role is to deal with it.

小小的媒介

今天，闲来无事，翻翻抽屉 ，翻到了童年的回忆……

有小时候从“银河”得到的“欢乐惊喜包”~里面收着很多信纸、信封、书签之类的小东西。还有小学毕业后和大家联系的信件。^^

该怎么说呢，通信，我想已经变成一个很稀有的词语了吧？现在的人都有e喵了啦，谁还得空用手写信还要去邮寄？可是，我真的很怀念呢。其实我很喜欢写字的呢，小时候的我根本不会讨厌做功课。只不过人云亦云，每个朋友都不喜欢的时候，自己喜欢不是很奇怪吗？我很喜欢完成一样功课之后的成就感~（可是现在大学的我可不会喜欢呢，麻烦多了）

通信的过程很微妙吧？文字的效力其实有时胜过语言。我只有在再非语言表达的时候，才变得比较坦诚，所以都会什么都问什么都说吧~ 一笔一画，都是自己的心意，自己的心思，然后在信末端添加一些图案，增加小小乐趣。选美美的信纸、信封，然后寄出去给另一方的人。随后就是等待了，不知道什么时候会得到回信呢？

等到爸爸说：“有你的信哦”，总会有点兴奋。有时候还会有小小的惊喜呢，附带在信封里的东西，卡片、照片、贴纸等等。也许不是每一样都是我喜爱的东西，可是都很开心~也许是觉得自己有少少的地位？

现在重读以前的信件，总会看到很多以前发现不到趣事。童言童语，嘻~

不过，现在应该不会有人写信给我了吧？我已经没有检查信件的习惯了，因为我的名字很久没有出现了。还记得曾经叫他写信给我，可是到现在，勉强可以说只是收过一封吧（还不是寄的！）…………当中的惊喜没了……

唔，我还找到以前静雯帮我抄的歌词呢~因为很喜欢那些字，都没丢~（怎么办？家里要被我这个坏习惯塞到满屋子都是东西了

ARGUE=PATTERN??

how do you define ARGUE? problems? troubles? yea, it might be the terms in our mind it might appeared.

but, can you think of argue= solution? 

there is some cases, A bring out the issues to be discussed, DISCUSSED. But the words come across to the B's mind are: argue, trouble, many pattern.

"pattern more than badminton", how come you guys ignored the function of argue?
there are a lot of benefits to get from arguing in a relationship:

1. to brings out the problem that trouble each of us so that we can solve it.
2. to show what you care.
3. to give the chances for each other to understand what he or she really want and think.
4. to express the feeling to avoid the explosion of the emotion.
5. to avoid depression.
6. to break an unwanted/ suffered relationship (if nobody is going to settle the issues that has been brought out.)
7. to show how sad you are when he/ she treat you in the way you don't want.
8. and many many many more~

Only the one who care for you, will argue with you.don't ignore all the problems, it will sentence you to death one day. Problems brought out are used to be solved but not kept.

Someone said: they are ruled by the man, and I'm not counted as one of them. 

hmm, what I have to said is that, nobody is ruling who else. I'm lucky because he willing to argue with me patiently, and willing to solve the problem I have mentioned. This is our way in the relationship.

flee from the war isn't the best way to bring the peace, but reaching an agreement for the both party always the best way. =)

so, guys, don't ignore all the problem or question from us. If there is no problem, you are not human. but only there is problem, we have pattern. Therefore, please be considerate when you blame for our pattern. 

A Marriage

My Ex-Boyfriend, is going to Marry~~ =)
Frankly, i doesn't feel upset or sour in my heart, but really a big surprise for me. Seem like the time is really like a shooting bullet, rapidly pass through. The memory is just like yesterday, and now only realize so many years it has passed by.

"Congratz!" what i have to say. He is 27, have car and house. It's a good time for him to marry. Actually this would the reason why i accepted him last time, willing to work, have the potential to have a "not bad" family? and he is very aggressive to keep his body and face (he is self-loving a lot.vain.). But the problem is, his heart are flowing around the world, not stable yet. And now, he is going to settle down, it's really a great news, feeling happy for him. Always worry that he will miss the good one because of his playful heart, but now, not anymore~~XD

 He said, he worry for the new life after marriage. I think anyone does. A change, hah. Basically, people feel reluctance to change, and usually mostly can go through it. ;)
Just has to be honest and tell your another one how you really thinking. Life isn't your own after marriage, but is both of you. Respect each other is the way to survive (survive??!XP).

By the way, this kind of new life is soo far away from me. >"<

WHY　ALL MY FRIEND ARE GOING TO MARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRY!!!??

家庭 Family

从小学开始，我们从课本上，或是书写上，都会接触到“家”。

看见题目：“我的家”，然后我们开始悉数家庭成员，描述家庭的温暖，乐也融融的。有什么人会描写一个不开心的家庭？即使贫穷，即使单亲，学生们都会把家庭描述得很温暖。因为，家=温暖=避风港。

可是，怎样才是一个温暖的家？不要开冷气风扇吧，够温暖了吧？这是身体上的暖和，而不是心灵上的。一个家，只有看见大家开开心心的聚在一起，有说有笑的，没有心机的，那种家庭才会让人看了会心一笑，心里充满温暖。

有些家庭，有些家长，因为犯了一些错，搞的家不成家，即使坐在一起，也有心病。错，使每一个人类都会犯的，只要知错，有什么不能原谅。不原谅，只会抱憾终生，对你对他都一样。应该没有多少个有道德的父母（为什么说“有道德”的父母，因为也有很多丧心病狂的父母）会舍得让孩子受苦，即使孩子当真因为父母的错而出了一些状况，原谅他们好吗？因为，他们绝对不是有心的。你的恶言恶语，真的会像文学里所形容的那样“万箭穿心”。毕竟，我觉得每个父母都希望成为你心目中所能依靠的对象，所能依赖的对象。你的不信任，你的鄙视，该怎么承受下来？

不要只看见白板上的黑点，请会想起他们曾经付出过的，努力过的，他们的心，他们的爱，对他们好一点，好吗？俗语说：一家人没隔夜仇。今天吵架了，明天就和好了不是吗？

人无千日好，花无百日红。好的环境不是将常有，不好的来了，也只能接受。 即使在多么坏的环境下，珍惜身边的人。 他们会是和你一起渡过难关的人。 

衷心希望，世上的每一个人都有一个开心的家，温暖的家。没有悲伤的眼泪，只有喜极而泣的泪水。

混乱的人生

今天1月10号。

读书读书，听着音乐，心情有点闷闷的。

开始在想，我究竟想要一个怎样的人生，让我继续那么努力的读书。

其实，我只是想要一个安定的生活，不用操心，乖乖呆在家玩家家乐，把家整理得井井有条。

正因为想要一个安定的家，我害怕那许多会失去这生活的可能性，所以想要有多一些钱去应急。我选一个有能力的男人，我爱的不是奢侈的生活，而是保障性的生活。

可是，男人也许会离你而去，所以除了有能力的男人，我也要努力地做一个有能力的女人，至少他走了，我还可以养活自己。

可是，渐渐的，我发觉我的理想生活偏远了。我为了保障自己，我让自己不安定了。我出来闯，赚钱，到了很么时候我才可以安心的留在家里完成我想要的生活？安全感，要没有的话，永远都不会有，而我继续慢慢的远离我要的安定。

Tradeoff, 人生很多时候都很矛盾。我要这样，却不能忽略其他因素。可是最后，也许自己却太过杞人忧天，丧失了得到想要的机会。

我想要第一名吗？我想要成为一个女强人吗？我想要变成世界第一富有吗？其实，我只是想让自己的生活有一个保障，让后做自己爱做的事。对不起，其实我很讨厌读什么管理的，什么道理的，什么论。我有兴趣的，是怎样生活，和怎样让自己与别人相处。 为考试，为文凭而争取的知识，我很难过，也很累。

也许这就是大人常说的，要为兴趣而读书。而当初我选择了什么？经济，又能赚钱的就好了，不要成为家里负担就好了。我以为我对很多事情都有兴趣，其实兴趣不是没有，只是考试里的，却都真的只为了考试，而不是真正运用。从第一课，突然跳去第9课，某些东西都还没了解，老师说背他给的就好了。读书不是为了得到知识，为了明白么？

对不起，自己，我越来越忘了你的存在。

其实，我喜欢玩煮饭仔，只是当初你都不让我碰。自己吃自己喜欢就好了。