my 2010 Christmas gift??

i get this as my....souvenir? Christmas Gift? or New year Gift??

whatever, it costs a lot....and i like the bag it gave~

my 21st christmas

Christmas Christmas...
Im not a Christian, but all of us are celebrating it even i don't know why
but, in my concept, this is the day for the couple...
but, Im celebrating it with my Sisters...
long-long-time-not-seen sisters.

early morning,24th Dec
kinki, mun mun and me headed to Langkawi Island to visit our lovely young mother, Micole~
i do not plan to spend much at there
but the transport fees had cost me RM100...
steamboat- RM40
some other stuff..... 
luckily mum had given me some extra money
or else, Micole, Im not going everywhere with you but only stay at your house

the 1st night
we had only had the steamboat and countdown for the christmas
we had some beers too because the beers here are absolutely cheap!!(i heard it mixed with plain water? nut who knows?)
we play cards...who lose who drink
Kenneth is funny when he had some beer...
(we did not force him but he deserve to drink that since he try to fool somebody~~XD)

another day
we went for island hoping...
it cost 40 per person...

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the sea here is clear and beautiful...

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enjoying~~

we did not play water
we just keep on taking and taking photos
this is the cheapest entertainment!!
we did a lot funny things
micole jump and jump and jump for dunno how many times just to get a shoot
but seem like im the pro photographer, no one can take the good shoot except me!!haha

there is a tragedy when we are on the boat...
a tragedy happened on a foreigner!
'ouch!! it is fucking hurt!!!'
hee, what happen??
four of us know....hahaha

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welcome to Langkawi~~

2nd trial

ok, I failed again

the night in KL, im thinking
maybe, i should change my dream
maybe, i should set another life target for myself

i ask him,
what should i be
what can i do?

i felt that
i have nothing best
all 'half pail of water'....
DJ?
'wow, it is earn able job!!'my brother said
but, can i?

just as my brother said
i just too easy to satisfy
too easy to be happy
a compliment made me fly
too easy to give up..
a time of failure drag me to the hell
but at least i keep my dream for so almost 15 years

yes, i almost
ALMOST wanted to drop my dream
and just now,
i bath and i think
everybody got his/her dream
did anyone fulfill their dream?
did the successor success in just one-time-try?

there's a quotation from Chinese
bitter end sweet come (苦尽甘来）
i should get over all the difficulty
i should admit that
im not that talented
and im not granted

if i really wan to fulfill my dream
i have to pay more
maybe i should follow the advise of my brother?
get a teacher?

whatever
at least i tried
not once but twice already
at least i have ever fought for it

christmas gift

can i have an ink pen

those pen that can refill ink with a sharp head...

at first thought to post on FB

but finally not to do it

is an ink pen expensive?

or a wig?

 

 but i think...

nothing i will get...

so better wait for next year birthday~

simple love..

facebook..
everyday, you log in to the facebook
you see a lot of photos, status, notes, games updates...
those include complain, compliment, sweet talk, jokes, friends, family
and also COUPLE

the only thing that trouble me is COUPLE
the tarots said, nothing can trouble me except the loveship
yeah...i got my lovely family, not too bad in my study, i have friends too,
nothing worry for my healthy..i think...
but the loveship, even i don't go and touch it, it troubles me
is it the characteristic of Pisces?

when i fall in love
i doubted it and ran away
when the one do not love me
i sad i cry and blame the god
when someone love me
i push away and kick them off...

what is the matter??
i don't know
i saw the sweetness in Facebook
i saw the love in Facebook
i saw peace in Facebook
i saw the simple in Facebook

i started to wonder and desire the thing that have been rejected by me
i just hope i can get the simple things
a lovely boyfriend
holding me..
take some sweet sweet photos
have some sweet talk
sticker photos...
walk on the beach...
laugh together..
cry together...
lay on the shoulder and ask : do you love me?
and you say: yes...

you bring me to your house
they loves me a lot..
teasing here and there
a warm and kind family...
talking something that only the both of us know...
holding a small stone which may meaningful to us...
the thing that only we know..

go out with our good friends
my best friends are just like yours and vice versa
study together
watch the same series.
having same topic...

it seems simple..
everything i mentioned is just a very simple thing
it's warm
but, it is not easy to reach that...

this is simple love...

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o ya~ i cut my hair~~ ^^

nice??XD

Beach Party has gone...

waited from 530pm because we date at 6pm
that stupid junyu came at 630...

ti's alright....
calm down my dear...
we went for a dinner....DINNER.....>"<
i ate before i went out.
ok, i WAIT!

i wait and wait and wait...
finally...around 8 pm we officially started go to Beach Party...
(did you notice that? 6 to 8, 2 hours! ok.... )
while we reached there is almost 9 something.....aikz
(3 hours!!gonna die soon and im having headache on that day...)

this year party is not as merry as i think
car park weren't full
people...hmm..a lot but not too crowdy...

and the celebrities came out at around 10pm.....
and sand SIX songs.....(or five?)

only after their singing...we can only started the real beach party..
why?
because
WE ARE NOT ALLOW TO PLAY THE WATER BEFORE THEIR PERFORMANCE.....
0.0

the day was cold due to the raining god had just visited us...
cool breezing.... once we get into the water...
me and a girl(xue qi) were freeze !
we were giggling.... looking for the warmest shoulder...XD
those stupid guys kept splashing the water to us....
i cant see...T.T and my eyes were pain!!
so sad. that stupid teoh kwai loon worse, push me into the water!
cant breath! and drink few swallow of water.>"<

everyone are fking crazy on that day
water splashed here and there
laughing from one end to another end..
girls are thrown to the water everywhere...

im just freezing there and watching those girls to be thrown...XD
we are protected by our friends but also attacked by our friends....

someone said, it is not that fun
but it's happy for me
there is long long time i did not join them to play together...
it's a good memory...

and the shiny boy, you do have the shadow of my brother...
like your smile~

thanks for YOUR compliment and recognition!

just come back from singing session
go out with Vic and his colleages
first time with his friends...

finally get the good responses from them
one of them suggested me to go for the singing contest!
lol...
thanks...but i just failed it!

have a happy night today
but how come everyone thought Im his gf?
did he ever bring his gf out?
so weird...

never mind
we know it is not right~

anyways, they all are funny and nice~
really enjoying~~XD

failed

failed.

Ultimate power star
i was disqualified
what should be my response?
ok
there can be so many reasons that why im fail
Im nervous
I havent prepare well
i haven open my throat..

well, these are trashes
i cannot blame anyone
i have to admit that
Im fk stupid and worse

that is a long long way for me to improve and improve again

and i wonder
seem like Im the only 1 singing that loud in the room
am I using the wrong singing way?
or
im wrong for so many year?
i wonder...
maybe, im not that good in singing

i try to cheer myself up by persuading myself
this is because im nervous
this is my 1st time!

but, i cannot even recognize my singing
can anyone tell me that i am struggling on the wrong road?

anyway, the next competition
i will try my best, NOT TO BE NERVOUS

i thought, i can get it....
i thought....