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Tuesday, August 16, 2011

L.O.V.E.

the four alphabet L.O.V.E. are romantic.
we do hear it since we were babies.
we do looking forward for this once we understand it.

Love, isn't just a word.
there is CARE, SHARE, JEALOUS, LISTEN, FEEL, UNDERSTAND, and SPACE following the LOVE.
maybe there are more, if you dive deep inside of it.

no matter is the love from family, friends or beau.
those are needed.

even a baby.
it needs to be care, it wants to hug to  be pampered.
it will jealous also, when u have another pretty baby,it try to attract your attention.
it feels too, it can feel everything you do for it,you love, your care, your pampered....
it needs to be listened, even it cannot talk. it try it best to tell you what its need.
so, it needs your understanding, it will happy if you feed it when it's hungry.
of course, we do need some space sometimes...

actually, i don't really understand the love.
since when, i am already that awake to see the one besides me.
never been blind, never been crazy.
i blamed HIM took over my feeling. took over the ability to love.
but i know, no one supposed to be blamed.
that is my own fault.

I don't know how to love.
i try to CARE, but it is just a pretending.
i try to LISTEN, but i forget everything.
i try to UNDERSTAND, but not in my mind.
i try to JEALOUS, but this is not allowed in my world.
i try to FEEL, but it make me worse.
i needs some SPACE, but i cannot give you the SPACE.

sorry to anyone who loved me.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

A Volunteer Model 2

lAlways tryin' to colorize my simple life.
this is the 3rd time i've been the volunteer model.
sincerely, i love it, while you can meet some new friends, you can get nice photos too.

my profile LOOKs colorful and wonderful
full with lots of memory
hanging out with friends, photo shooting, love story.
did anyone jealous of this just like the time i envy others with the special life they had.

and we know, it may not be as nice as what you saw from the photos.
since the photos only show the joyful , never the sorrow.
you will never know that might the sorrow pictures has far away exceed the joyful one.

it's ok to create a HAPPY memory album
then in the coming day,
when i started to forget..
i flip my album, what i can see is only the happy memory.(blink~)
nice right?


i like this, my legs look long~XD

sexay?LOL





this is my photographer ya~~XD

my 1st volunteer model trial: A volunteer model


Tuesday, August 2, 2011

一种坚持

小学参加歌唱比赛,唱‘小草’。连续参加了两届,终于在​第二次拿了亚军。这首歌,现在回想起,不正是在告诉大家,我们要想小小草​一样,那一份坚持吧,不饶的精神。还有一次,爬山,那一次,我决心要上到尽头。半途,下大雨,没有雨伞,我对自己说,我要坚持,这是一​种考验吧。我依然继续往前走。雨停了,我以为,我熬过了​吧,再走一段路,雨又下了。就这样下一下,停一下。最终,我还是坚持了。到了尽头没​路走了。 =)而现在的我,竟然忘了这一份精神。既然我曾经坚持过,我相信,未来也可以吧。
-jazz-

这一段,是我post在我的FB主页的一个小小心声。
我很喜欢唱歌,小时候,大人们都喜欢称赞我,说我会唱歌,唱的好听。
幼儿园老师也选我上台唱歌去。 所以,我爱上了唱歌,因为开心。

上了小学,我也继续我的梦想,在志愿栏上填上——歌星。
其实我懂,大人们都在笑我,“在马来西亚当歌手?没出息!”
即使我在山上遇到的一个伯伯,也笑说没出息的。
可是,这不是应该让我放弃的原因。
我参加了校内的歌唱比赛,第一届,榜上无名。
可是第二届,我获得了第二名。
从此,我相信,我是可以的。
没有因为失败而放弃的我,至少我挤进了前三名,获得了小小的安慰。
这是坚持。

小时候的我,很爱登山去,因为我家附近就有一个“升旗山”(不是槟城那个)。
妈妈总爱骂我:“一个小孩跑去山里,待会儿被人抓去买了怎么办?!”
而我,当然都是一个忤逆的女儿,常常有事没事就跑去走山。
所以童年的我皮肤是非常的健康的(健康肤色~)
可是,每一次我都是走了光头山就下来了。

有一次,有个叔叔告诉我和朋友,走这一条路会看到天堂哦。
然后,我和朋友就决定上去看个究竟。
那时,那条山路对还是小孩也是女生的我们是有一定的难度的。
我们走了好久,终于到了,那是一个亭子,也有一些运动器材。
心想:这是所谓的天堂吗?
可是,当你的眼光放远一点,你会看见怡保,怡保都在你眼下。
晨光,照射在你的脸上。是温暖,也是慰问。

可是,那里不是尽头,不是最高的。
我常常想要走到最高点,想要看看那边的风景。
可是常常没有人愿意陪我去,然后我就取消了念头。

有一天,忘了是什么原因,闷闷不乐的我,决定去寻找这尽头。
我不停走,越过了那天堂,人群开始减少,渐渐的剩下我一个。
心应该有点害怕,可是,我不让自己害怕。
我继续走,雨突然下了。
我,挣扎。
是否该继续下去?我没有雨伞们没有雨衣,当时竟然还打雷。
有点害怕,可是,心想,也许这是‘你’给我的考验。
不管了,走就走。
衣服内内外外都湿透了。

可是,它又突然停雨了。
我开心,有一种赢了的感觉,“看,我就懂你在考验我!”
我心情愉快的继续走,怎么知道一段路后,又下起了倾盆大雨。
心想:天啊,你怎么了。
我不甘心,我告诉自己,我不会放弃的!!!!

雨下了又停,停了又下;衣服湿了又干了,干了又湿。
累了,我坐在马路中央。(没有亭子了。)
然后又继续走。

最后,我到了尽头。
原来尽头没有想象中那么迷人。
没有遥远的视野,没有阳光。
只有树木,只有鸟鸣。

虽然结果并不如意,可是我不后悔当初那一份坚持。
虚假的梦,我不要。
就让这一份坚持告诉我什么是我要的。