i miss you, everyone.

chit chat with yen today..
recalled the passed time.
how many relationship i had started and ended
i can't really count which is the 1st time
and don't even know which can be assumed as a real relationship


but i do remembered
the confused of the feeling
the disappointed me
the happiness while the phone rang.

is it everyone had a time like this?
you looked forward to a relationship
it's happy when what you guessed is the truth
finally, he said out the words
and you two started the relationship
everything seem wonderful
everything was in the plan

but, after started the relationship
there is a feeling
that you have never feel
indescribable,not happy, not sad
you don't understand what is that feeling
you cannot handle it
the feeling confused you, unsaety
and finally, u quit.
you tell him we cannot continue
no reason, just quit.
you clearly know that is the reason.

sorry for everything
sorry for easily started a relationship without a mature mind.
and appreciate everything you all ever do.
and I've grown up now.

every time i said,
can you please don't think so far
it isn't mean that i never think of the future
just because i have thought of it, worry of it
that's y i don't want you to think
because there is no future between us.

every words every thing that i said
doesn't mean as the words
is it just as the words
"woman's mind is the needle in the sea"
you are hard to find it out.

i actually know what i want
but, I'm just afraid to know it
you too.